She'd been feeling judged by those she trusted lately. She felt utterly alone in decisions she had come to, but she still stood by those decisions.
This wasn't a typical situation. There are many aspects that are not favorable. Sometimes good people do bad things. People need to make mistakes in their life in order to truly live.
She never set out to get involved with someone she could barely stand at first. She never intended to fall into an intense friendship with him. She never intended to kiss someone else's boyfriend on her birthday--while she was still married. She never expected it to feel so freeing, to show her what she needed to do to fix her life.
Sometimes good people need to do bad things to see the underlying good that can come out of it.
KSL had snapped at her recently, causing her to take an afternoon to get drunk and burn the feelings out of her. He had been mean, but she had been judge-y.
They both had their faults.
Eventually, he apologized for hurting her. She had ignored the apology, but moved onto the next topic. He was still waiting to hear back from the apartment complex on approval. It looked like he was in for a longer wait, as it was the weekend.
Their flirtationship was at an impasse. They really couldn't move forward with a Lovers/FWB/Anything until he was out of that house and broken up with his girlfriend.
It would change things for sure, but she was uncertain in which direction. He was feeling bad right now about the upcoming break up, so she was forgiving him for a lot of his actions. She was beginning to see why people called him an asshole.
But she wasn't willing to give up on him just yet. She wanted to see where her mistakes would take her. See if she could live just a little while longer.
