Monday, October 30, 2017

The Take Over, The Breaks Over

She and Mel had an emotional night.  She wasn't sure how they had come upon it, but he had decided before they went any further she deserved to know some dark secrets about him.  They turned out to not be dark so much as unfortunate circumstances he'd been faced with in his past.  He was clearly torn up over them though, but she said that she understood and didn't think any less of him because of it.

They were a little drunk, and she told him that she did like him, and that if he wanted to be exclusive, she would be for him.  He told her that her being with other people took the pressure off him, even though he wasn't seeing anyone else.  "If you ever feel differently let me know, okay?" She asked him.  Mel nodded.

The next day she got a text from Theo.  He was going to ask the other girl to be his girlfriend.  She immediately texted back that she was happy for him, which she was.  Wholeheartedly.  Mel had been there for her when Theo just let her fall to the wayside.  This was the way things should be. 

She told him she felt him pulling away and it was okay, she was glad that he was happy. 

"I wasn't trying to pull away seemed like you got busy honestly but you're too special to me I still want to talk to you and hang out."

Then he said he wasn't going to ask her to be his girlfriend right away, and she knew that he was playing games with her.  He wanted her to say don't do it.  He was being manipulative.  She was even more glad to be rid of him, but still stayed diplomatic.  He did not.  He fucked with her time and kept rescheduling their last date until she told him to forget the whole thing.  Good riddance and good luck to the new girlfriend.  She was sure going to need. it.

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

The Love Bomb

About a month had passed since she started her polyamor-ish lifestyle.  Seeing two guys had been oddly freeing.  Without the ability to have a Relationship because she was seeing multiple people, her relationships were much more enjoyable.  She didn't worry about fixing either one of them, didn't focus on their flaws.  Never worried about where it was all going.

When Theo texted her that he started seeing someone else, she almost felt relieved. Not being someone's everything really took the pressure off of the relationship.  Because she wanted to be open and honest about everything, she asked him about her.  He refused.  When pressed he said they'd met on Tinder, and  she lived in his apartment complex so it was "convenient" and they were just getting to know each other.  He enjoyed spending time with her.  She got a little worried that he was doing it to try and make her jealous, but she felt the opposite.

She knew that Mel wasn't seeing anyone else.  She was a little worried about that because he seemed to go pretty hard emotionally in his relationships.  However, when they were together he seemed to be playing it pretty cool.

JJ kept telling her that Mel was serious, that all he talked about was her.  She didn't feel that coming from him when they were together.

Her month got busy.  She got stressed with work and taking on too much of the show she was ADing for.  Mel stepped up to the plate, waiting for her after rehearsal to have a drink and decompress for the day.  She didn't have a lot of spare time, but she looked forward to spending time with him.

Because she couldn't hang out in person, Theo started to pull away.  The daily "good morning" and "good night" texts slowed to a stop.  She barely noticed with her schedule, but did make a note that if that was something he did when she was stressed, that was another check mark in the negative column for him.

She couldn't wait to see light at the end of the tunnel of this month.

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

The Year of Our Lord

Theo had agreed to meet her at her favorite bar.  It was within walking distance, but when the time came she was tired and walked to the parking garage to get her car out.

She found it completely blocked in by new cars on either side of her.  She sighed, sucked it up, and walked through the park, texting an apology for how late she was going to be.

Of course, she ended up being there about the same time as a friend of his dropped him off.  She winced when she realized, again,  that she was there without a car by choice, whereas he still had everyone drive him around.

They had bonded over dead dad stuff before, and they obviously had sexual chemistry.  But he had some serious dealbreakers.  He'd never learned how to drive and he was 30 years old.  He didn't seem to have any kind of idea for his future--he said he was content to just be.

She talked about all these things with him, and he didn't seem to be worried about them not having a future together.  He seemed cocksure that he was going to change her mind, win her over.

She told him that if he meant it he could get a license and a car.  He complained that it was too expensive, and she pointed out that he made more money than she did, took her out to expensive drinks, so he had plenty of money.  All he needed to do was save up a little.

She knew that he wouldn't, and she also knew it wouldn't go that far anyway.  She was okay with a casual fact it seemed like the perfect thing for right now.

Monday, October 2, 2017

Back From the Burn

"Sushi date tonight?" came the text from Mel.  He was back earlier than she anticipated, and she was embarrassed to admit she'd missed him.  She wasn't sure if it was going to be weird after so much time together.  Maybe he'd met someone at Burning Man.  Had sex with them.  Was no longer interested in her.

It was possible.

He was waiting to pick her up in the back alley again, leaned up against his second vehicle.  It bumped around like the back wheel was about to fall off at any moment.  She laughed as they went around the corner to hop on the freeway.

They were waiting at a stoplight and the car in front of them suddenly put their car in reverse and back into them.  He got out of the car and yelled a little too loudly and the lady who was clearly not from the country.  She had a strong accent and didn't seem to understand what the problem was.  It was a weird interaction but eventually they were back on their way and he seemed to cheer up.

He was full of Burning Man stories, from this year and year's past.  He seemed tired but happy. Everything felt like it was on the right track again with them, and she smiled at him over wasabi and other amazing and spicy fish.

They were too tired to see a movie, again.  It didn't matter, they were both okay with how much time they'd spent together.  He was still decompressing and tired, and she forgave him.  The kiss was still just as passionate as the first time, and she looked forward to the future.