Tuesday, October 4, 2016

The Hurt of Others

Goldie started crying at the birthday party.  "I want to go home."

She had just gotten off the phone with SD, who was in shock.  Her brother had a seizure that morning, and never came out of it.  She was close with her whole family, especially after her mother's death just a few years ago.  SD had never properly dealt with the emotion from her mother's death, and she felt overcome with emotion for SD.  She couldn't deal with this again...she wasn't strong enough.  This wasn't fair.

They left and were quiet most of the way home, only really saying "poor SD" and commenting how awful this was.

She got back into her apartment and stood for awhile, not sure what to do with herself.  She sat on the couch and watched the sun set until she was sitting in the dark.  She felt terrible.  She needed to do something.

She left for the store.  She would at least get her a card and some flowers.

Her BFF called her as she got to the store.  She and SD had lived together, and SD's brother had been like BFF's own.  She was nearly inconsolable.  Everyone was in so much pain over this.

She picked up a card, but all the flowers looked horrible.  She ended up grabbing a mug with the poop emoji on it.  "Because life is shitty" she wrote on the card.

She hoped it would make her feel a little better.

"Well I know how much you hurt for your friends.  Are you okay?  Do you need to talk?  I'm happy to chat, I'm just chilling at home folding laundry."  Dawn texted her.

Dawn was such a great friend.  She did need to talk.  She came over for a little while, snuggled Dawn's dog, and they talked.  Talked about how unfair death is, how horrible family stuff was...and eventually boys.  Dawn had started a casual sex relationship with the ex she just wrote off.  It was an interesting situation...almost the same one she had gotten into with KSL.  Seeing how it would shake out would be an adventure.