"Oh my god, you want to divorce him so hard right now." Goldie said to her. "You want to divorce him and run away so fast."
"I mean, yes...but I also know this is a knee jerk reaction." She told her. It was unnerving the way she saw right through her and her feelings, which she tried to keep close. She felt exposed, but also relieved to talk to someone that openly about her situation. Goldie had always been so amazing to her, and she felt she deserved the truth. She gave her the quick story of how she felt that her marriage was falling apart and he was doing nothing to help himself.
"He doesn't have a job, so he's feeling emasculated right now." She said, again being insightful. Although she was trying to make her feel better about her situation, she really wished someone would be 100% on her side right now. He gets excuses made for him, but she still has to be the adult, the strong one, the one to pay more money than she'd make in 4 months for his new transmission and relinquish her car in the meantime. How much more would she need to sacrifice of herself before she had given everything a fair chance.
"I just don't want to make any decisions that I'll regret when I can finally see clearly." She told Goldie. She replied "You are in a shit storm, a wind storm right now. You can't see what's on the other side of the storm yet. I think you need to get out of the house, get an apartment that you can afford on your own, and wait for the dust to settle there. Then make a decision about what you need to do."
It was good advice. She thought of the 8 month deadline KSL was giving his relationship, and in her mind she settled on a time frame. 3 months after they had their own place, she would make a decision, wrong or right.
She started searching online for two bedrooms that were in her price range. She'd like this to start sooner rather than later, or she would make a knee jerk decision that she would later regret.
