She had invited Mel to the work Christmas party. The retirement party had gone so well that they decided they looked good dressed up together.
"After the Christmas party, I would really love to get some hot chocolate and peppermint schnapps, hop in an Uber, and go around looking at Christmas lights for an hour. How does that sound to you?" Mel asked.
She was incredibly touched by the gesture and said that sounded really nice.
When she got off work he said he was just leaving his house, so she said she'd change and meet him there. She had poured herself into a dress of Goldie's and some high heels she never got to wear out even though she'd owned them for years. She checked in and walked around saying hello to everyone she worked with, until Mel texted her that he had just arrived. She stood up and went to greet him at the door and immediately noticed he was exhausted.
"Did you have a hard day at work? Are you okay?" Normally she would have been happy to see him but she knew something had happened. It had. His "friend" had an emergency and he had driven 20 hours in the last 24 to help her out.
He only had a plateful of food, said he didn't feel well, and went home instead of their plans. She told him it was okay, he needed to rest.
But she had a feeling in the pit of her stomach, depression and low self esteem starting to flow through her veins like a cold liquid. She wasn't prioritized enough, to anyone. Mel didn't want a relationship with her, Nameless was content with the occasional text and hook up.
She wasn't worth it.