Monday, May 22, 2017

The Lost Week

She'd never had to take a whole week off to recover from anything before.  This week she expected to feel better but take the whole week off anyway, writing and catching up on movie's on KSL's Vudu account, and going through her Netflix and Hulu queue.

In reality, all she did was sleep.  People slipped by, in and out of her consciousness and her apartment, bringing her fries (the only food she seemed to be able to eat) and milkshakes.  Even BFF came by for a hot minute, although she figured it was more so that she could tell everyone else that she was being kind.

She had a Text-to-Speech app that she used with most people, in order to stay engaged in the conversation.  When she had multiple people over it was hard to interject, so she ended up just showing the person next to her.  They'd respond to her verbally, and she'd end up showing everyone.  It wasn't the best way to talk to people.

The liquid hydrocodone made her go into sensory overload, and she felt like she was in a different reality. The Walmart she walked into seemed too dark, it didn't feel like she had her headlights on...it was taking away any pain she might be feeling, but at the cost of being able to go out and be a human.  Her pupils stayed tiny pinpricks at all times, and she was always just a tiny bit dizzy.  She never felt the slope in her apartment floor more in that week.

She felt as if she was underwater, and did nothing but try to escape it all by sleeping.  Watching TV hurt her eyes, so the movies and the binge watching TV shows became a distant memory quickly.  She couldn't even concentrate hard enough to read a book or write.

Then, right before she went back to work, the hydrocodone ran out.  The sensory overload got better, although it was still very much there.  But then the referred pain to the ears started.

In addition to not being able to eat anything much, she started to feel sick from everything she ate.  Everything started to make her nauseated and she hoped she would be able to get through the work week, which was going to be 14 days long.