It didn't occur to her until later, but she realized suddenly one day that she needed to tell her ex about the roommate situation before he found out from someone else.
"I'm still not 100% sure where I will end up at this point, but KSL needs a roommate around that time and it would save me $400 a month to do that, so that's what I might end up doing. Then I could save up for a year and then buy a house.
I know you were worried about him when separated, and I didn't want you to hear that I was moving in with him from someone else and assume it was anything other than a roommate situation. I didn't want you to be surprised and hurt, I wanted you to hear it from me."
"I appreciate that."
Her heart sank. She hated that she was hurting him...why did she still feel this way, still feel like she continued to rip a band-aid off that kept reappearing?
"Are you okay?" She felt compelled to text.
"I'll be alright."
Even though she thought she'd cried herself out, fresh tears started to form. "I'm sorry. After paying so much for the studio the past two years I really need to save money. I was going to roomie up with Banana but this date came up so fast she's not ready to move out, she's still between jobs."
"I understand, and you don't owe me an explanation. I appreciate that you told me though."
"I feel like I do. I know it doesn't seem like it but that last thing I want to do is hurt you."