The day of BFF's wedding had finally come.
She had been dreading it for weeks. If this wedding had come even a year later, she most likely would not have been invited. They were in a weird place where BFF most likely thought that she had to invite her, and she thought she had to come. Neither of them were adult enough to just admit that and not make it awkward for everyone involved.
JJ was supposed to be her date, but he bailed at the last minute, much like he had with being a moving buddy. KSL had turned his nose up at being a "plus one" and Mel had to work and would have only been able to duck in and out for the ceremony.
She decided to take her mother, which everyone else saw as sweet but she saw as pathetic. Dealing with the bad driving all the way up the mountain to the wedding site was whiplash worthy, and she relinquished control only when realizing she was going to have to parallel park.
The ceremony was sweet, but she still had this weird feeling that she shouldn't have been there at all. Just being a regular guest hurt her heart. She hadn't been asked to help or contribute, but it seems that SD seemed to be running the whole wedding. They had been friends for a long time, sure, but it started to really sink in as the night wore on that she'd lost her best friend and been invited to the wedding.
Not that BFF's groom was bad, in fact she had come to like him far more than BFF. She really enjoyed that he was supportive of everyone around him, and had a dark snarky quality that they shared.
Everyone was taking the mic and doing toasts, and she suddenly had the urge to go up there. She got emotional and knew there was no way she was going to be able to hold it together, so she held off.
Just before she left she approached them and told them she wasn't a people person, so she was going to toast them face to face now.
"When BFF and I first met, it was because she was a mutual friend of someone else's and I needed to check her out because I wanted to make sure she was good enough for him. Then we met and I told her she wasn't good enough for him. Then you came along, and I had to check to make sure you were good enough for her. And you are."
She got choked up, hugged them both, and left without saying goodbye to anyone.
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Wednesday, May 30, 2018
Monday, March 12, 2018
Free Weekend Part 2
"Let's go walk back to the other bar." JJ suggested. Even though it was pretty cold, she decided a quick walk wouldn't hurt.
Less than 10 feet from the bar she regretted her decision. Though he was only wearing one thin white t-shirt, JJ took off his jacket and put it around her. She tried not to accept it, but he insisted he ran hot anyway.
A few steps later, she was suddenly flat on her back on the ground. Her glasses were off of her face and she had no idea what happened. JJ was helping her up, and she was reaching for her specs and relieved to find them unharmed.
"I was literally turning around to tell you about the black ice on the ground. Are you okay?"
She took inventory and realized she'd put out the heel of her left hand down to catch herself, and all of her weight had come down on it. It was already starting to swell. They got back to the bar and she ordered a drink strictly to put on her hand.
She told the bartender about her fall, and he kissed her palm better.
"Who is this guy? And what happened to your other friends?" The bartender asked.
"He's my friend! The other ones went home. I'm not allowed to have friends now?"
He smirked and shook his head.
She and JJ continued to drink and play arcade games, and sat around kissing for a little bit before her hand swelled up more and she felt she had to drive home while she still could.
"I have to go home. My hand hurts so bad." The bartender's cute smile turned downward, and he extended his hand to her good hand to hoist her upper body over the bar, and he tapped his cheek for a kiss...and turned in at the last moment. She laughed at him, knowing he was just doing it because JJ was standing right there.
She drove JJ back to his car, and his kiss seemed slightly more urgent than the last. She laughed to herself...looks like her bartender friend had his desired effect.
Less than 10 feet from the bar she regretted her decision. Though he was only wearing one thin white t-shirt, JJ took off his jacket and put it around her. She tried not to accept it, but he insisted he ran hot anyway.
A few steps later, she was suddenly flat on her back on the ground. Her glasses were off of her face and she had no idea what happened. JJ was helping her up, and she was reaching for her specs and relieved to find them unharmed.
"I was literally turning around to tell you about the black ice on the ground. Are you okay?"
She took inventory and realized she'd put out the heel of her left hand down to catch herself, and all of her weight had come down on it. It was already starting to swell. They got back to the bar and she ordered a drink strictly to put on her hand.
She told the bartender about her fall, and he kissed her palm better.
"Who is this guy? And what happened to your other friends?" The bartender asked.
"He's my friend! The other ones went home. I'm not allowed to have friends now?"
He smirked and shook his head.
She and JJ continued to drink and play arcade games, and sat around kissing for a little bit before her hand swelled up more and she felt she had to drive home while she still could.
"I have to go home. My hand hurts so bad." The bartender's cute smile turned downward, and he extended his hand to her good hand to hoist her upper body over the bar, and he tapped his cheek for a kiss...and turned in at the last moment. She laughed at him, knowing he was just doing it because JJ was standing right there.
She drove JJ back to his car, and his kiss seemed slightly more urgent than the last. She laughed to herself...looks like her bartender friend had his desired effect.
Wednesday, March 7, 2018
Free Weekend Part 1
"I know it's sort of late notice, but if you and AB are free, let's go to the arcade bar tonight!" She also texted JJ, thinking that there was no way he was going to respond.
It was Saturday night, and she was finally out of enough depression to want to see the people that she really cared about. Banana was mysteriously missing from her place at the bar, wooing a potential new partner elsewhere.
The group of introverts soon grew overwhelmed by the din of the games mixed with the growing crowd and decided to walk over to the other bar for some quiet conversation. They talked about the poor crowds in the new BFF's new theatre space, how things weren't going well over there. They thought she knew about it because of Banana's involvement, but in reality she and Banana talked more about interpersonal relationships than actual business.
JJ was getting tired, starting to yawn, when JJ walked in.
"Just to let you know, I was just saying we were about to take off, so it has nothing to do with your arrival." PJ said to JJ.
She and JJ decided to stay at the bar, and said goodbye to AB and PJ. After a couple of drinks they made their way upstairs, mostly because there were comfy couches where she'd made out with two other guys before. She thought maybe JJ found that to be a challenge, because she'd mentioned it earlier.
Soon they were chatting and making out occasionally upstairs. They had the chat they always had, about how he was incapable of a real relationship, how bad he was at communication, and the potential for a threesome between them and Mel.
"You wouldn't have done it!" He teased.
"I don't know, I was drunk enough. But you missed your window, I got tired."
"Well, next time I'll ply you with booze and some protein bars."
After some more making out he said "Your laugh is always tinged with sarcasm. I never know if you are laughing because you are amused or you are laughing AT me."
She answered him by kissing him and laughing ambiguously. He was too emotionally needy to be satisfied by her.
It was Saturday night, and she was finally out of enough depression to want to see the people that she really cared about. Banana was mysteriously missing from her place at the bar, wooing a potential new partner elsewhere.
The group of introverts soon grew overwhelmed by the din of the games mixed with the growing crowd and decided to walk over to the other bar for some quiet conversation. They talked about the poor crowds in the new BFF's new theatre space, how things weren't going well over there. They thought she knew about it because of Banana's involvement, but in reality she and Banana talked more about interpersonal relationships than actual business.
JJ was getting tired, starting to yawn, when JJ walked in.
"Just to let you know, I was just saying we were about to take off, so it has nothing to do with your arrival." PJ said to JJ.
She and JJ decided to stay at the bar, and said goodbye to AB and PJ. After a couple of drinks they made their way upstairs, mostly because there were comfy couches where she'd made out with two other guys before. She thought maybe JJ found that to be a challenge, because she'd mentioned it earlier.
Soon they were chatting and making out occasionally upstairs. They had the chat they always had, about how he was incapable of a real relationship, how bad he was at communication, and the potential for a threesome between them and Mel.
"You wouldn't have done it!" He teased.
"I don't know, I was drunk enough. But you missed your window, I got tired."
"Well, next time I'll ply you with booze and some protein bars."
After some more making out he said "Your laugh is always tinged with sarcasm. I never know if you are laughing because you are amused or you are laughing AT me."
She answered him by kissing him and laughing ambiguously. He was too emotionally needy to be satisfied by her.
Wednesday, February 21, 2018
You Get Your Rest
She woke up one morning, and the act of putting her feet on the ground felt like a defeat. She was depressed.
It was in this depression that she realized she hadn't actually been depressed in quite a while. She'd just been too busy.
Working on her new play had been difficult. No one was bonding, everyone was alpha-ing except for the director, and it was the stage manager's first time so she had to teach him the ropes without being overbearing. No one in the cast was bonding. She felt like she just went to get a little affection with JJ once in awhile.
Goldie was filming another movie and had actually cast her in it. It was her first time acting since college, and it was stressful to do the art direction and worry about a performance. While in production she rode the high of spending time with new people and being on a movie set. She thought she'd made a couple of friends, but their interest in Banana proved to show they were just looking for something else. She was happy Banana was getting the attention, but she was sad that these people didn't even want to be her friend.
At the end, she was also judging a local beauty pageant when a last minute addition to the shoot came up. She worked through the night, then went to day 1 of the pageant directly afterwards, followed by the last night of her play. In the end she was up for about 41 hours, and it took it's toll. After the next day the pageant was over, and thus all her projects had ended.
And so it all came crashing down. The vagintis she'd been fighting since the beginning of all the crazy suddenly raged. She called the doctor, thought about the friends she had made and lost in such a short time, and how there was nothing else to look forward to.
She wanted to deactivate her dating apps. She tried to be productive but ended up back in her bed after a few hours. The only thing that pulled her out of it for a bit was going to see IL's and Levi's new baby. He was very calming and sweet, and it was amazing, but the next day she was back to being cranky.
It would all pass, but for now she had nothing to look forward to.
It was in this depression that she realized she hadn't actually been depressed in quite a while. She'd just been too busy.
Working on her new play had been difficult. No one was bonding, everyone was alpha-ing except for the director, and it was the stage manager's first time so she had to teach him the ropes without being overbearing. No one in the cast was bonding. She felt like she just went to get a little affection with JJ once in awhile.
Goldie was filming another movie and had actually cast her in it. It was her first time acting since college, and it was stressful to do the art direction and worry about a performance. While in production she rode the high of spending time with new people and being on a movie set. She thought she'd made a couple of friends, but their interest in Banana proved to show they were just looking for something else. She was happy Banana was getting the attention, but she was sad that these people didn't even want to be her friend.
At the end, she was also judging a local beauty pageant when a last minute addition to the shoot came up. She worked through the night, then went to day 1 of the pageant directly afterwards, followed by the last night of her play. In the end she was up for about 41 hours, and it took it's toll. After the next day the pageant was over, and thus all her projects had ended.
And so it all came crashing down. The vagintis she'd been fighting since the beginning of all the crazy suddenly raged. She called the doctor, thought about the friends she had made and lost in such a short time, and how there was nothing else to look forward to.
She wanted to deactivate her dating apps. She tried to be productive but ended up back in her bed after a few hours. The only thing that pulled her out of it for a bit was going to see IL's and Levi's new baby. He was very calming and sweet, and it was amazing, but the next day she was back to being cranky.
It would all pass, but for now she had nothing to look forward to.
Sunday, December 31, 2017
Year in Review
"Wait, you haven't had sex at all this year?" IL asked her over lunch one day. She was genuinely shocked. "With all the boys you had this year?"
She thought about it and realized she did have a dick-filled year for not getting any. She'd spent the early morning hours of 2017 having tons of sex with KSL. Things had gotten more serious with Nameless before dropping off. She'd filed for divorce and in attempting a no-strings attached make out session with JJ and ended up in a sexless relationship with Mel. There was even that hot moment where she almost agreed to a threesome with JJ and Mel, but ultimately decided she was "too tired."
It's funny that throwing out a tiny stipulation about getting an STD test before having sex will make your actual sex life come to a screeching halt.
But she had started her new job too, which still felt new despite being there a whole year. Having a whole week off of it had been rejuvenating, but she was ready to get back to the grind of her life.
As she waited for the countdown, she had a mini panic attack. She was officially getting into "too old" status. Too old to procreate, even though she wasn't sure she even wanted to. Too old to seriously get into a relationship. She was very soon going to be of an age where nothing was appropriate anymore.
She tried to stifle the thoughts, as they just came with spending a New Years Eve alone. There was something about starting a year alone that was profoundly depressing. A friend had texted her that the crappier the NYE party, the better the year was. She guessed this was the year to put that theory to the test.
Happy New Year
She thought about it and realized she did have a dick-filled year for not getting any. She'd spent the early morning hours of 2017 having tons of sex with KSL. Things had gotten more serious with Nameless before dropping off. She'd filed for divorce and in attempting a no-strings attached make out session with JJ and ended up in a sexless relationship with Mel. There was even that hot moment where she almost agreed to a threesome with JJ and Mel, but ultimately decided she was "too tired."
It's funny that throwing out a tiny stipulation about getting an STD test before having sex will make your actual sex life come to a screeching halt.
But she had started her new job too, which still felt new despite being there a whole year. Having a whole week off of it had been rejuvenating, but she was ready to get back to the grind of her life.
As she waited for the countdown, she had a mini panic attack. She was officially getting into "too old" status. Too old to procreate, even though she wasn't sure she even wanted to. Too old to seriously get into a relationship. She was very soon going to be of an age where nothing was appropriate anymore.
She tried to stifle the thoughts, as they just came with spending a New Years Eve alone. There was something about starting a year alone that was profoundly depressing. A friend had texted her that the crappier the NYE party, the better the year was. She guessed this was the year to put that theory to the test.
Happy New Year
Friday, September 1, 2017
Driving Mr. Drunky
Her head had just hit the pillow, the taste of a good kiss still on her lips, when the intercom for the building rang her phone.
It was 21. He was drunk, alone, and had lost his phone and his ID. She buzzed him up and he was in her bathroom peeing for what felt like forever. He was belligerent, repetitive, and annoying. Without both a phone and an ID, she had no other real choice but to drive him home. She couldn't even put him in an Uber because he couldn't tell her exactly where he lived.
"Far." He said.
They stopped by the bar where he thought he lost his ID and they told him they didn't have it. She drove all the way out to the other side of town where eventually they got to his house. He kept saying all the same things; how drunk he was, how he was missing out on a beautiful boy that he tried to follow into a bar but they wouldn't let him through the door because he didn't have his ID, how his friends had ditched him.
She figured she had nothing to lose and told him he ruined a perfectly awesome night. "What were you doing?"
"Well I was out all night with JJ, and he was a perfect gentleman and we made out at the front of the building. I really wanted that to be the last thing I thought about tonight.
"He wouldn't make out with you? I'll make out with you." 21 responded. "21 I'll never want to make out with you."
He was a mess. Coming home the freeway was closed due to construction, so she took the sides streets home and ended up getting back home close to 6 AM.
She wasted the entire next day sleeping before her dinner plans at 5:30 PM.
It was 21. He was drunk, alone, and had lost his phone and his ID. She buzzed him up and he was in her bathroom peeing for what felt like forever. He was belligerent, repetitive, and annoying. Without both a phone and an ID, she had no other real choice but to drive him home. She couldn't even put him in an Uber because he couldn't tell her exactly where he lived.
"Far." He said.
They stopped by the bar where he thought he lost his ID and they told him they didn't have it. She drove all the way out to the other side of town where eventually they got to his house. He kept saying all the same things; how drunk he was, how he was missing out on a beautiful boy that he tried to follow into a bar but they wouldn't let him through the door because he didn't have his ID, how his friends had ditched him.
She figured she had nothing to lose and told him he ruined a perfectly awesome night. "What were you doing?"
"Well I was out all night with JJ, and he was a perfect gentleman and we made out at the front of the building. I really wanted that to be the last thing I thought about tonight.
"He wouldn't make out with you? I'll make out with you." 21 responded. "21 I'll never want to make out with you."
He was a mess. Coming home the freeway was closed due to construction, so she took the sides streets home and ended up getting back home close to 6 AM.
She wasted the entire next day sleeping before her dinner plans at 5:30 PM.
Wednesday, August 30, 2017
Loveish Triangles
It was 9PM when she got dropped off from drinks with a friend. Still tipsy she entered her apartment as her phone went off.
"What are you up to?" text from JJ. "Nothing just got home from a couple of drinks."
"Want to go to a house party? I'm just getting out of the show and they are all going." He asked.
"Ummmm, well I'm still a little drunk so you'd have to come pick me up." She said, figuring that would be the end of it, and she sat down on her couch.
"I'll be there in five."
Crap.
She brushed her teeth and came downstairs. As she walked out the front door and looked for him, she spotted him outside of his car on his phone. He looked up and smiled his adorable schoolboy grin and opened the door for her. She made a comment that she knew how to get into a car and he stopped her saying that it was the gentlemanly thing to do.
He promised a friend fries so they went to a drive through that took a long time to get through. While they were waiting he brought up how he didn't like the fact that he was talked about as being a fuckboy on her podcast, anonymously of course.
"Explain it to me. How are you not a player, a Casanova?" She smirked at him.
"I enjoy the company of people, in general. I think they are interesting, and I like getting to know them. Women just aren't used to being treated right."
"You can say that again. There's a whole stand-up about it. I'm not used to it at all. There's a thin line between being yourself, your own person, not needing anyone else...and letting someone do things for you."
"Just accept it. You deserve to be treated well...just let it happen."
Still, in her mind, she resisted. She could hold doors for herself. Getting her own drink was fine. And yet, her main love language was and is Acts of Service...why wouldn't she let herself accept the love she should feel she deserved?
When they arrived at the party she got up to get a drink and JJ stopped her and asked what she wanted. She said that she just wanted some water but she could get it herself. He said he was getting it, and they both said at the exact same time: "We just talked about this."
She sighed and sat down, allowing him to grab her cup of water with tons of ice. It was going to be a hard road to just let him be a gentleman.
She managed to let it ride the whole night. He got her water, flitted around talking to everyone but always came back to her. She was on her phone and he asked who she was talking to, and she said Banana was out downtown with some of her drunk high school friends.
"We could go there."
So they said goodbye to all the remaining people and got back into his truck. Making their way back downtown, they talked more about him not wanting to ever be tied down to one person, actually be in a relationship. He said he'd never want to be in one, and sex just wasn't all that important to him. She smiled as Mel had told her a slightly different version of the story, but she firmly put it into the "not her business" category in her mind.
They got to the bar and realized Banana's friends were beyond wasted. She was trying to get them all to go to the next bar, but it was like herding cats. She and JJ followed them around for awhile, holding hands and he made fun of her hand holding. "You don't interlace the fingers, you hold hands like mittens? My thumb goes on top!" She laughed and they walked until they had round up all of Banana's friends and moved to the next spot.
They spent some time with Banana at the bar, until one of her friends made an insensitive joke. JJ took a minute and stepped outside because he was angry at the joke. She brushed it off because not only was the joke not funny, but he was too drunk to know what he was talking about. JJ came back in and ordered a water, drained it quickly, and then put his hand on her knee. He played with the fabric on her dress until he had moved it aside and caressed her bare knee. Suddenly, he squeezed it playfully to get her attention.
"Ready to go?"
It was around 3:45 in the morning, so she figured it was time. They had raged hard enough, even though she felt perfectly sober.
He held open the door of his truck for her, and they breezed along the half mile to her apartment. He hopped out of the car, opened her door for her, and grabbed her hand again as he walked her to the front door of the building.
He reached out and kissed her, and they made out for a little while. She was glad to have the redemption of another round of kissing where she wasn't sloppy drunk, but she found his kisses to be...not as bold as she would've liked. Still, it was pleasant to have a guy who wanted to kiss her, even if it wasn't ever going to go anywhere.
She was smiling as she went upstairs, got on her PJs, and put her head hit the pillow.
Then her phone rang. It was the intercom system for the building.
It was 5AM.
She hesitated, then answered.
"What are you up to?" text from JJ. "Nothing just got home from a couple of drinks."
"Want to go to a house party? I'm just getting out of the show and they are all going." He asked.
"Ummmm, well I'm still a little drunk so you'd have to come pick me up." She said, figuring that would be the end of it, and she sat down on her couch.
"I'll be there in five."
Crap.
She brushed her teeth and came downstairs. As she walked out the front door and looked for him, she spotted him outside of his car on his phone. He looked up and smiled his adorable schoolboy grin and opened the door for her. She made a comment that she knew how to get into a car and he stopped her saying that it was the gentlemanly thing to do.
He promised a friend fries so they went to a drive through that took a long time to get through. While they were waiting he brought up how he didn't like the fact that he was talked about as being a fuckboy on her podcast, anonymously of course.
"Explain it to me. How are you not a player, a Casanova?" She smirked at him.
"I enjoy the company of people, in general. I think they are interesting, and I like getting to know them. Women just aren't used to being treated right."
"You can say that again. There's a whole stand-up about it. I'm not used to it at all. There's a thin line between being yourself, your own person, not needing anyone else...and letting someone do things for you."
"Just accept it. You deserve to be treated well...just let it happen."
Still, in her mind, she resisted. She could hold doors for herself. Getting her own drink was fine. And yet, her main love language was and is Acts of Service...why wouldn't she let herself accept the love she should feel she deserved?
When they arrived at the party she got up to get a drink and JJ stopped her and asked what she wanted. She said that she just wanted some water but she could get it herself. He said he was getting it, and they both said at the exact same time: "We just talked about this."
She sighed and sat down, allowing him to grab her cup of water with tons of ice. It was going to be a hard road to just let him be a gentleman.
She managed to let it ride the whole night. He got her water, flitted around talking to everyone but always came back to her. She was on her phone and he asked who she was talking to, and she said Banana was out downtown with some of her drunk high school friends.
"We could go there."
So they said goodbye to all the remaining people and got back into his truck. Making their way back downtown, they talked more about him not wanting to ever be tied down to one person, actually be in a relationship. He said he'd never want to be in one, and sex just wasn't all that important to him. She smiled as Mel had told her a slightly different version of the story, but she firmly put it into the "not her business" category in her mind.
They got to the bar and realized Banana's friends were beyond wasted. She was trying to get them all to go to the next bar, but it was like herding cats. She and JJ followed them around for awhile, holding hands and he made fun of her hand holding. "You don't interlace the fingers, you hold hands like mittens? My thumb goes on top!" She laughed and they walked until they had round up all of Banana's friends and moved to the next spot.
They spent some time with Banana at the bar, until one of her friends made an insensitive joke. JJ took a minute and stepped outside because he was angry at the joke. She brushed it off because not only was the joke not funny, but he was too drunk to know what he was talking about. JJ came back in and ordered a water, drained it quickly, and then put his hand on her knee. He played with the fabric on her dress until he had moved it aside and caressed her bare knee. Suddenly, he squeezed it playfully to get her attention.
"Ready to go?"
It was around 3:45 in the morning, so she figured it was time. They had raged hard enough, even though she felt perfectly sober.
He held open the door of his truck for her, and they breezed along the half mile to her apartment. He hopped out of the car, opened her door for her, and grabbed her hand again as he walked her to the front door of the building.
He reached out and kissed her, and they made out for a little while. She was glad to have the redemption of another round of kissing where she wasn't sloppy drunk, but she found his kisses to be...not as bold as she would've liked. Still, it was pleasant to have a guy who wanted to kiss her, even if it wasn't ever going to go anywhere.
She was smiling as she went upstairs, got on her PJs, and put her head hit the pillow.
Then her phone rang. It was the intercom system for the building.
It was 5AM.
She hesitated, then answered.
Monday, August 14, 2017
Friends in Low Places
It had been an insane Saturday.
She spent a fair amount of time in bed that morning, continuing to fall asleep until she had to get up to go to Banana's play. She was running later than she felt comfortable, but as it turned out there were people still buying tickets when she arrived.
She walked into the theatre and the volunteer asked if she knew where she was sitting. She started to say that she thought so but would like a little help.
No more than a couple of sentences into her explanation she glanced up to see JJ. He grinned and slowly reached over and patted the seat next to his.
She returned his smile and told the volunteer that her seating arrangement had suddenly changed.
"I'm so hungover. We kept drinking and walked a mile to the bar that MG had driven to after dropping you off."
"Ya'll are crazy. I don't know how you put up with 21 that long. He's a handful."
JJ shrugged. "I like people who talk."
"Then why do you like me?" She laughed at him.
"Well I don't only like them."
He bought her chips for "their" hangover during intermission, then had to sneak out afterward because he had another social commitment.
She hugged Banana and congratulated her on her role of the lifetime, then had to move onto her next social commitment.
Her co-workers were waiting for her at the restaurant. She declined a cocktail at dinner, and they went on to see KSL's show. It hit her a little hard again as she watched, and there was a song about how his character had never been alone before, and it obviously struck a nerve. She was afraid of when the paperwork went through and she'd be all alone, for the first time in her life.
She left her co-workers and went downstairs to say hi to the cast. KSL gave her a warm hug, and it was the first time in a long time they had hugged. She buried her face in his chest and breathed in. His smell hit her with a powerful nostalgia. He commented on how good the hug had been, and they went in for another.
"You okay?" He asked her. She shook her head no. All the sensations from the papers filed weighed down on her. It was as if all the sentiments from the last year were concentrated in this moment.
"You need to talk?" He asked, already on high alert. She wanted to say no but ended up nodding her head. He said he needed to speak with some people first and then they could head out. She ended up talking to the musical director about the show, and she shared that it was hitting her harder because of the divorce. The musical director was shocked that they had been separated at all, so it was extra difficult to talk about. Eventually, the director left and she was chatting it up for awhile with the bartenders.
She heard KSL laugh over where he was surrounded by people, and her heart sank. She didn't want to do this to him anymore. He was having fun and she was being a burden. She said goodbye to the bartenders and left.
Halfway home she felt guilty that she'd left without a word, and texted him that she was going home. He texted a few minutes later that he was done, and came up for a drink. They talked and watched fireworks from her balcony, and she shared the feelings she was grappling with in regards to the divorce.
She joked about having celebration sex because she just got her results back and she was std free. He said he knew she was kidding, and she kept quiet because she didn't want to start anything or have any sex bruises before the sex with Nameless next week. She needed that to happen to take her mind off everything, and she was really starting to miss him.
She and KSL went to Wal-mart for thank you notes for him and milk for her, and on the way he mentioned the Memorial Day trip she didn't write about. He wanted to know if it was because she was angry about it when in reality nothing had really happened. They had gone to the lesser known lake to hang and found it crazy busy, so they kept driving and went to Ikea and to sushi, where he claimed to have gotten violently ill even though they ate all the same things and she felt fine.
Looking back she realized maybe that was why she'd forgotten to write about it. He'd managed to make her feel bad about the entire trip so she put the whole day out of her mind. It was crazy how good they had gotten at their friendship, but there were still an insane amount of land mines to avoid.
She spent a fair amount of time in bed that morning, continuing to fall asleep until she had to get up to go to Banana's play. She was running later than she felt comfortable, but as it turned out there were people still buying tickets when she arrived.
She walked into the theatre and the volunteer asked if she knew where she was sitting. She started to say that she thought so but would like a little help.
No more than a couple of sentences into her explanation she glanced up to see JJ. He grinned and slowly reached over and patted the seat next to his.
She returned his smile and told the volunteer that her seating arrangement had suddenly changed.
"I'm so hungover. We kept drinking and walked a mile to the bar that MG had driven to after dropping you off."
"Ya'll are crazy. I don't know how you put up with 21 that long. He's a handful."
JJ shrugged. "I like people who talk."
"Then why do you like me?" She laughed at him.
"Well I don't only like them."
He bought her chips for "their" hangover during intermission, then had to sneak out afterward because he had another social commitment.
She hugged Banana and congratulated her on her role of the lifetime, then had to move onto her next social commitment.
Her co-workers were waiting for her at the restaurant. She declined a cocktail at dinner, and they went on to see KSL's show. It hit her a little hard again as she watched, and there was a song about how his character had never been alone before, and it obviously struck a nerve. She was afraid of when the paperwork went through and she'd be all alone, for the first time in her life.
She left her co-workers and went downstairs to say hi to the cast. KSL gave her a warm hug, and it was the first time in a long time they had hugged. She buried her face in his chest and breathed in. His smell hit her with a powerful nostalgia. He commented on how good the hug had been, and they went in for another.
"You okay?" He asked her. She shook her head no. All the sensations from the papers filed weighed down on her. It was as if all the sentiments from the last year were concentrated in this moment.
"You need to talk?" He asked, already on high alert. She wanted to say no but ended up nodding her head. He said he needed to speak with some people first and then they could head out. She ended up talking to the musical director about the show, and she shared that it was hitting her harder because of the divorce. The musical director was shocked that they had been separated at all, so it was extra difficult to talk about. Eventually, the director left and she was chatting it up for awhile with the bartenders.
She heard KSL laugh over where he was surrounded by people, and her heart sank. She didn't want to do this to him anymore. He was having fun and she was being a burden. She said goodbye to the bartenders and left.
Halfway home she felt guilty that she'd left without a word, and texted him that she was going home. He texted a few minutes later that he was done, and came up for a drink. They talked and watched fireworks from her balcony, and she shared the feelings she was grappling with in regards to the divorce.
She joked about having celebration sex because she just got her results back and she was std free. He said he knew she was kidding, and she kept quiet because she didn't want to start anything or have any sex bruises before the sex with Nameless next week. She needed that to happen to take her mind off everything, and she was really starting to miss him.
She and KSL went to Wal-mart for thank you notes for him and milk for her, and on the way he mentioned the Memorial Day trip she didn't write about. He wanted to know if it was because she was angry about it when in reality nothing had really happened. They had gone to the lesser known lake to hang and found it crazy busy, so they kept driving and went to Ikea and to sushi, where he claimed to have gotten violently ill even though they ate all the same things and she felt fine.
Looking back she realized maybe that was why she'd forgotten to write about it. He'd managed to make her feel bad about the entire trip so she put the whole day out of her mind. It was crazy how good they had gotten at their friendship, but there were still an insane amount of land mines to avoid.
Wednesday, August 9, 2017
A Little Too Much Fun
It was 21's birthday again, and they decided to have another epic night of drinking, sans DUI this time.
Everyone had their shows to perform/direct/attend, so they all decided to meet up later in the night. Acrobat and SD crapped out just before everyone was supposed to meet up, so it ended up being their directors from the show last year, MG, and a mutual friend JJ.
She and JJ had been flirting almost since they met a couple of years ago. It was purely innocent and sweet, and she enjoyed his company. He had been there for the Harmless Fun night, where she told him she'd make out with him if he came. He accidentally brought a friend, rendering making out null and void, which is why she ended up making out with the other boy.
She remembered making out with JJ, and 21 trying to make out with her...but the rest of the night, up to a certain point, was a blur. MG informed her that at a certain point she had fallen asleep on a toilet.
She decided that it was time to stop abusing alcohol so much. She had a bad week and deserved to act out a bit...but the time was over.
Everyone had their shows to perform/direct/attend, so they all decided to meet up later in the night. Acrobat and SD crapped out just before everyone was supposed to meet up, so it ended up being their directors from the show last year, MG, and a mutual friend JJ.
She and JJ had been flirting almost since they met a couple of years ago. It was purely innocent and sweet, and she enjoyed his company. He had been there for the Harmless Fun night, where she told him she'd make out with him if he came. He accidentally brought a friend, rendering making out null and void, which is why she ended up making out with the other boy.
She remembered making out with JJ, and 21 trying to make out with her...but the rest of the night, up to a certain point, was a blur. MG informed her that at a certain point she had fallen asleep on a toilet.
She decided that it was time to stop abusing alcohol so much. She had a bad week and deserved to act out a bit...but the time was over.
Monday, August 7, 2017
Mountains of Haze
It was Fire Season. Even though they'd had a great, wet winter...the summer had turned dry and there were fires all around the surrounding area. The last few days had filled the valley with smoke.
One morning she woke up, and for the third day in a row she couldn't see the mountains.
She hadn't realized until then how much she had counted on them to be there. She became anxious and felt exposed. It was like a blanket that had been ripped away from her and she grew cold.
It had been quite a week of emotions too. Getting to be okay with Nameless and where they were heading...coming to terms with the fact that she had made out with someone without any sort of emotions attached to it.
On her end, anyway.
Mel had messaged her, asking what she was doing on Saturday, a mere 8 days after the incident. He was marching in a Pride Parade and wanted her to come. She told him she had breakfast plans with the Unicorn and then a facial later that day. He then asked what she was doing Friday. Luckily she had plans to go out drinking with her Maid of Honor.
"If you don't want to go just tell him that. If it hurts his feelings he'll get over it." JJ advised her.
"I've just seen him get really emotional and over attached." She messaged back.
"Oh yeah. Definitely. But like I said, if you're not feeling it then just tell him."
"I did. Guess I'll have to keep doing it."
One morning she woke up, and for the third day in a row she couldn't see the mountains.
She hadn't realized until then how much she had counted on them to be there. She became anxious and felt exposed. It was like a blanket that had been ripped away from her and she grew cold.
It had been quite a week of emotions too. Getting to be okay with Nameless and where they were heading...coming to terms with the fact that she had made out with someone without any sort of emotions attached to it.
On her end, anyway.
Mel had messaged her, asking what she was doing on Saturday, a mere 8 days after the incident. He was marching in a Pride Parade and wanted her to come. She told him she had breakfast plans with the Unicorn and then a facial later that day. He then asked what she was doing Friday. Luckily she had plans to go out drinking with her Maid of Honor.
"If you don't want to go just tell him that. If it hurts his feelings he'll get over it." JJ advised her.
"I've just seen him get really emotional and over attached." She messaged back.
"Oh yeah. Definitely. But like I said, if you're not feeling it then just tell him."
"I did. Guess I'll have to keep doing it."
Friday, July 28, 2017
Harmless Fun Part 2
The group lost AB and BFF as they moved onto a gay bar. It came down to JJ, Rey, and a group of people she almost never spent time with. One in particular, Mel, she hadn't seen in almost a year, save for a quick moment when he came to her work to sign up for something. He was out celebrating his birthday that night. They had worked on a show together 2 years ago, and he had held him while he cried about an ex-girlfriend who had come to the show and brought up some feelings for him.
He was a bad actor, but as a person completely harmless. She had never really thought of him one way or another since, had even deleted his information out of her phone during one of those times when she needed more storage for an update.
The group had started to pair up on the dance floor, leaving them together. She had another drink and when drunk she loved to dance, so she grabbed him and pulled him onto the dance floor. Grabbing his hand felt familiar, and she suddenly realized that at the last bar she had grabbed it to get him to leave while he was talking to KSL's ex. She was on a whole 'nother level of aggressive tonight.
She knew that she was too drunk to be dancing well, and started to lean into him for support...which led to slightly more intimate dancing. The alcohol throbbed through her system as the beat got more and more intense.
She couldn't remember if he'd kissed her first, or she had kissed him. The memory was lost in time. All she could remember was that they were kissing, and had been for awhile. Without inhibition, a thought to how he was 9 years younger than her, or any other logical thought, she just enjoyed the moment. He was a great kisser, almost better than KSL had been. He kept up with her style and knew all the right places to grab her while they kissed. She was addicted and kept going back for more.
3:00 AM came around and they headed out of the club. The rest of the group head off towards their car, and he offered to walk her the half-block home. She decided to let him.
The stopped across the street from her building, and came together to kiss again. She got lost in it until she realized people were walking by them and how they must look.
"I could come up." He offered.
"I'm drunk, not stupid" she thought to herself, but to him she just said "I don't think so. This was fun though."
"I've wanted to do this for two years. Even before, when you were married...I feel bad about that, but I wanted this. I really wanted to kiss you."
Her mind went through a range of thoughts. The first being that she thought that was a great line, and would have totally worked on a girl his age to get him to come up. The second being that he was earnest enough to mean that, and it was flattering. The third being that she was now worried he was going to think they had something going on...and she felt nothing for him. Even though she and Nameless hadn't had a talk about exclusivity, she felt like being exclusive with him. She had no idea what came over her that night.
"I had fun...but I'm way too old for you. This was a birthday present."
They kissed again. She was embarrassed by how addicted she was to feeling so desired by someone.
It was awhile before they broke apart and she walked into her building, alone.
He was a bad actor, but as a person completely harmless. She had never really thought of him one way or another since, had even deleted his information out of her phone during one of those times when she needed more storage for an update.
The group had started to pair up on the dance floor, leaving them together. She had another drink and when drunk she loved to dance, so she grabbed him and pulled him onto the dance floor. Grabbing his hand felt familiar, and she suddenly realized that at the last bar she had grabbed it to get him to leave while he was talking to KSL's ex. She was on a whole 'nother level of aggressive tonight.
She knew that she was too drunk to be dancing well, and started to lean into him for support...which led to slightly more intimate dancing. The alcohol throbbed through her system as the beat got more and more intense.
She couldn't remember if he'd kissed her first, or she had kissed him. The memory was lost in time. All she could remember was that they were kissing, and had been for awhile. Without inhibition, a thought to how he was 9 years younger than her, or any other logical thought, she just enjoyed the moment. He was a great kisser, almost better than KSL had been. He kept up with her style and knew all the right places to grab her while they kissed. She was addicted and kept going back for more.
3:00 AM came around and they headed out of the club. The rest of the group head off towards their car, and he offered to walk her the half-block home. She decided to let him.
The stopped across the street from her building, and came together to kiss again. She got lost in it until she realized people were walking by them and how they must look.
"I could come up." He offered.
"I'm drunk, not stupid" she thought to herself, but to him she just said "I don't think so. This was fun though."
"I've wanted to do this for two years. Even before, when you were married...I feel bad about that, but I wanted this. I really wanted to kiss you."
Her mind went through a range of thoughts. The first being that she thought that was a great line, and would have totally worked on a girl his age to get him to come up. The second being that he was earnest enough to mean that, and it was flattering. The third being that she was now worried he was going to think they had something going on...and she felt nothing for him. Even though she and Nameless hadn't had a talk about exclusivity, she felt like being exclusive with him. She had no idea what came over her that night.
"I had fun...but I'm way too old for you. This was a birthday present."
They kissed again. She was embarrassed by how addicted she was to feeling so desired by someone.
It was awhile before they broke apart and she walked into her building, alone.
Wednesday, July 26, 2017
Harmless Fun Part 1
She was overthinking again, ruining a nice thing. Really she was just nervous about getting to the point where she needed to sleep with Nameless. She wanted to sleep with him. She was just scared...scared he wasn't feeling that this was anything more than a fling. Not being able to see him very frequently gave her far too much time to think.
She went to volunteer for a show and her friend Rey bought her a drink. The show was sold out, so instead of staying to watch it, she, AB, BFF, and Rey went out to eat. Half a sandwich and another drink later, and they walked across the street to a bar. 3 drinks after that, she had texted her friend JJ to come join them, saying "There's a 90% chance I'll make out with you." knowing it would be an innocent "Disney Friends With Benefits" situation.
She was still full of hormones from the night before, and she impulsively texted Nameless "I'm so drunk right now. I wish you were in town." At noon the next day he would text back "Drunk texting...how cute"
While she was having a good time she looked across the bar...and saw KSL's ex. The one he had left when they were first together. She was drunk and running on pure emotions, and she was totally irritated that his ex was again crashing the same bar she was in. For some reason she blamed KSL, and texted him as such. It led to yet another back and forth between them where she told him that he no longer had any use for her because she was no longer weak, and he preyed on the weak.
A couple of other mutual friends joined up with them, and decided to move onto the next bar.
She went to volunteer for a show and her friend Rey bought her a drink. The show was sold out, so instead of staying to watch it, she, AB, BFF, and Rey went out to eat. Half a sandwich and another drink later, and they walked across the street to a bar. 3 drinks after that, she had texted her friend JJ to come join them, saying "There's a 90% chance I'll make out with you." knowing it would be an innocent "Disney Friends With Benefits" situation.
She was still full of hormones from the night before, and she impulsively texted Nameless "I'm so drunk right now. I wish you were in town." At noon the next day he would text back "Drunk texting...how cute"
While she was having a good time she looked across the bar...and saw KSL's ex. The one he had left when they were first together. She was drunk and running on pure emotions, and she was totally irritated that his ex was again crashing the same bar she was in. For some reason she blamed KSL, and texted him as such. It led to yet another back and forth between them where she told him that he no longer had any use for her because she was no longer weak, and he preyed on the weak.
A couple of other mutual friends joined up with them, and decided to move onto the next bar.
Friday, January 27, 2017
Opening Night
Finally, her play that wouldn't end had finally made progress. It was finally opening night, and come hell or high water it would finish.
After a taxidermy head fell off the wall and a vase got smashed by a falling sword, but no one was hurt. In fact, in the face of everything the actors actually seemed to be on top of their lines for the first time ever.
They were in the home stretch when she got a text from MG asking to come out and drink. She instead invited her to the reception for the play, and said they would hit up a place to drink afterward.
After a boring reception, they headed over to a faux-dive bar with Acrobat, Banana, and JJ in tow. They played pool, coupled off and switched around when the mood suited them. All in all it was a fun time despite the temporary awkwardness of the recently split up of Banana and Acrobat.
MG and Acrobat were engaged in a deep conversation when she came back over from playing pool with a JJ. She reached out lovingly for MG, when MG recoiled and ran out of the bar.
"What did you say to her?!?" She yelled at Acrobat, who insisted they were just having a conversation about relationships.
She gave her a minute, then went after her. MG was smoking a cigarette and crying. "It's not you at all, I'm sorry. He just has a way of saying things that make you feel like the whole world is caving in, you know?"
She knew.
Soon afterward MG was making out with JJ after saying she wanted to leave. Reluctantly she went with her, and they went for a hamburger so that MG could throw up what she had been drinking that night.
MG slept on her couch until noon the next day.
After a taxidermy head fell off the wall and a vase got smashed by a falling sword, but no one was hurt. In fact, in the face of everything the actors actually seemed to be on top of their lines for the first time ever.
They were in the home stretch when she got a text from MG asking to come out and drink. She instead invited her to the reception for the play, and said they would hit up a place to drink afterward.
After a boring reception, they headed over to a faux-dive bar with Acrobat, Banana, and JJ in tow. They played pool, coupled off and switched around when the mood suited them. All in all it was a fun time despite the temporary awkwardness of the recently split up of Banana and Acrobat.
MG and Acrobat were engaged in a deep conversation when she came back over from playing pool with a JJ. She reached out lovingly for MG, when MG recoiled and ran out of the bar.
"What did you say to her?!?" She yelled at Acrobat, who insisted they were just having a conversation about relationships.
She gave her a minute, then went after her. MG was smoking a cigarette and crying. "It's not you at all, I'm sorry. He just has a way of saying things that make you feel like the whole world is caving in, you know?"
She knew.
Soon afterward MG was making out with JJ after saying she wanted to leave. Reluctantly she went with her, and they went for a hamburger so that MG could throw up what she had been drinking that night.
MG slept on her couch until noon the next day.
Monday, January 9, 2017
Rockin' Eve Part 2
KSL walked through the door, and she reintroduced him to Dawn. He hugged JJ, who immediately said he had to leave and took off. Dawn was resting on her bed, and KSL made her a margarita with the booze he had brought. He also gifted her an entire pizza, saying he picked it up at one of his other parties.
They sat down on the couch, and Dawn got up and started gathering her things. She gave Dawn a hug goodbye, and then she and KSL were alone again.
"I swear I didn't do that on purpose. I thought everyone was staying for awhile." She said.
He shrugged it off and sat down with his drink. They slowly descended into being fairly buzzed on their drinks, and he talked about his next show. Around 3AM they drunk dialed his friend who was going to be part of it. He didn't answer of course, so they continued to watch videos and talk.
They got to talking about their lives, and she shared a little but was evasive. She explained her feelings of not feeling desired or wanted. Her spirit animal and the two dates that had deleted their online dating profile. "Even you." She added.
"Me? What about me?" He said, obviously offended.
"Nothing, never mind."
He started talking about how bad he felt about where he was in his life. He confessed he was a little in trouble at work, even though he was doing well there. Everything was coming down on him the same way that it was coming down on her.
She felt compelled...so she kissed him. He kissed her back, but didn't move his hands. "What are you doing?"
"I like kissing you. But not when you aren't playing along."
"Hey, the last few times it's been all me. I'd like you to take charge for once."
Challenge Accepted. She pulled herself to straddle his lap and continued to kiss him while taking off his clothes. He finally gave in and reached under her shirt to remove her bra, then her shirt. She led him over to the bed, but he started to pull her hair. She was trying to get his belt off, but wasn't able to do it.
"I'm sorry, am I distracting you?" He smirked.
"Very much so. This is my rodeo pal, drop the hair."
Her control over the situation was lost a few moments later, when he realized she still had her jeans on and he was completely naked. It got wild with them quickly, and his aggression was almost too much for her to handle. He seemed to want to actually start to have sex, so she stopped him and asked him if she wanted him to grab a condom. He continued to kiss her and come closer and closer.
"KSL? Condom?" She asked again.
He grabbed her and growled into her ear "Not yet. It's my turn to have some fun."
He took over and ravished her for a long time before finally pull her up off the bed to get a condom. The sex was, as always, amazing. It was like he had decided to take over for being the marathon man in her life.
There was no cuddling afterwards, he went straight to the bathroom. She waited her turn, and he was dressed by the time she came out.
"It's like, 7 in the morning. You've been up for over 24 hours. Would you sleep for like an hour or something before driving home."
"Actually, that kind of invigorated me. I feel like I've had an energy drink or something. She put her head to his chest, and his heart was indeed pumping very hard.
"Look, you got me a little this time." He said, pointing out a small bruise forming on the inside of his arm. "I got you a little too," he said, pointing to her shoulder. She looked down and frowned.
"No...that's my...my birthmark. It's always been there." She was more than a little shocked that he had never noticed it before, considering how many times he had spent with his mouth over it. Piz had noticed it one of their first nights together.
"Hey, maybe I can beat the sun home." Sunrise was fast approaching outside her giant wall of window.
She walked him to the door, and he hugged her goodbye. Knowing this might very well be the last time, she kept his embrace, looked up and him and said "Hey" so he was looking at her. She tapped her finger to her lips, indicating a good bye kiss.
He pretended not to understand for a minute, then bent down and they shared a single kiss. They'd never done that before, it had always lead to making out.
"Happy New Year." She said after they parted. He echoed her sentiment, without any awkwardness or dread behind his tone. Maybe they had made it to their plateau.
He texted her that he was home safe 20 minutes later, and she fell asleep. At least her year was off to a multi-orgasm start.
They sat down on the couch, and Dawn got up and started gathering her things. She gave Dawn a hug goodbye, and then she and KSL were alone again.
"I swear I didn't do that on purpose. I thought everyone was staying for awhile." She said.
He shrugged it off and sat down with his drink. They slowly descended into being fairly buzzed on their drinks, and he talked about his next show. Around 3AM they drunk dialed his friend who was going to be part of it. He didn't answer of course, so they continued to watch videos and talk.
They got to talking about their lives, and she shared a little but was evasive. She explained her feelings of not feeling desired or wanted. Her spirit animal and the two dates that had deleted their online dating profile. "Even you." She added.
"Me? What about me?" He said, obviously offended.
"Nothing, never mind."
He started talking about how bad he felt about where he was in his life. He confessed he was a little in trouble at work, even though he was doing well there. Everything was coming down on him the same way that it was coming down on her.
She felt compelled...so she kissed him. He kissed her back, but didn't move his hands. "What are you doing?"
"I like kissing you. But not when you aren't playing along."
"Hey, the last few times it's been all me. I'd like you to take charge for once."
Challenge Accepted. She pulled herself to straddle his lap and continued to kiss him while taking off his clothes. He finally gave in and reached under her shirt to remove her bra, then her shirt. She led him over to the bed, but he started to pull her hair. She was trying to get his belt off, but wasn't able to do it.
"I'm sorry, am I distracting you?" He smirked.
"Very much so. This is my rodeo pal, drop the hair."
Her control over the situation was lost a few moments later, when he realized she still had her jeans on and he was completely naked. It got wild with them quickly, and his aggression was almost too much for her to handle. He seemed to want to actually start to have sex, so she stopped him and asked him if she wanted him to grab a condom. He continued to kiss her and come closer and closer.
"KSL? Condom?" She asked again.
He grabbed her and growled into her ear "Not yet. It's my turn to have some fun."
He took over and ravished her for a long time before finally pull her up off the bed to get a condom. The sex was, as always, amazing. It was like he had decided to take over for being the marathon man in her life.
There was no cuddling afterwards, he went straight to the bathroom. She waited her turn, and he was dressed by the time she came out.
"It's like, 7 in the morning. You've been up for over 24 hours. Would you sleep for like an hour or something before driving home."
"Actually, that kind of invigorated me. I feel like I've had an energy drink or something. She put her head to his chest, and his heart was indeed pumping very hard.
"Look, you got me a little this time." He said, pointing out a small bruise forming on the inside of his arm. "I got you a little too," he said, pointing to her shoulder. She looked down and frowned.
"No...that's my...my birthmark. It's always been there." She was more than a little shocked that he had never noticed it before, considering how many times he had spent with his mouth over it. Piz had noticed it one of their first nights together.
"Hey, maybe I can beat the sun home." Sunrise was fast approaching outside her giant wall of window.
She walked him to the door, and he hugged her goodbye. Knowing this might very well be the last time, she kept his embrace, looked up and him and said "Hey" so he was looking at her. She tapped her finger to her lips, indicating a good bye kiss.
He pretended not to understand for a minute, then bent down and they shared a single kiss. They'd never done that before, it had always lead to making out.
"Happy New Year." She said after they parted. He echoed her sentiment, without any awkwardness or dread behind his tone. Maybe they had made it to their plateau.
He texted her that he was home safe 20 minutes later, and she fell asleep. At least her year was off to a multi-orgasm start.
Friday, January 6, 2017
Rockin' Eve Part 1
Dawn walked in and was unable to sit down. She was agitated, very upset. As the countdown show raged behind her, she cried about her new relationship. He was spending time with his ex again, and had just invited her to use the mediation app that was their "thing." She was hurt, and wasn't sure that she could get past it.
They had been dating three months. It hit her as she was talking that their first kiss was the end of her and Piz. Three months and she still wasn't over him. How embarrassing. She decided then and there that it was time to stop. She needed to completely put Piz out of her mind and stop letting him have a hold on her heart.
She comforted Dawn, who calmed down after awhile and managed to enjoy herself a little bit as they chatted and snacked on Dawn's vegan cheese. She got a call from Goldie, who lived on the wrong side of the building for fireworks and wanted to come over for the count down with her husband and dog. She agreed, and 15 minutes before midnight, MG said she was heading over and had invited a mutual friend, JJ.
Her introvert New Year's Eve had blown up in her face. She'd never had this many people in her apartment.
They all stepped outside and watched the fireworks rage for almost 20 minutes. They headed back inside and she checked on her phone to see that KSL had texted her "HAPPY NEW YEAR"
She responded in kind and asked if the two parties he was invited to were fun. He said he should have stayed at the first one as it was more fun. Dawn interjected, "You should invite him over, everyone is here!"
So she went against her better judgment and sent off the text "Well still kicking it here with a couple of people."
Before she could send the second text inviting him, he called. She answered, and MG decided it was time for her to leave. She was saying goodbye to MG and KSL took it as her saying goodbye to him and hung up. She texted him after closing the door on MG.
"I was saying goodbye to MG not you silly. So legit I didn't hear a word you said over the phone. I was inviting you over to hang but I guess have a happy new year."
He called a second time. He was close and could head over.
There was a knock at the door, and JJ was on the other side. Goldie and her husband and dog left, so it was just JJ and Dawn. Her party was dwindling, and it was going to look silly when KSL got there.
The doorbell rang.
They had been dating three months. It hit her as she was talking that their first kiss was the end of her and Piz. Three months and she still wasn't over him. How embarrassing. She decided then and there that it was time to stop. She needed to completely put Piz out of her mind and stop letting him have a hold on her heart.
She comforted Dawn, who calmed down after awhile and managed to enjoy herself a little bit as they chatted and snacked on Dawn's vegan cheese. She got a call from Goldie, who lived on the wrong side of the building for fireworks and wanted to come over for the count down with her husband and dog. She agreed, and 15 minutes before midnight, MG said she was heading over and had invited a mutual friend, JJ.
Her introvert New Year's Eve had blown up in her face. She'd never had this many people in her apartment.
They all stepped outside and watched the fireworks rage for almost 20 minutes. They headed back inside and she checked on her phone to see that KSL had texted her "HAPPY NEW YEAR"
She responded in kind and asked if the two parties he was invited to were fun. He said he should have stayed at the first one as it was more fun. Dawn interjected, "You should invite him over, everyone is here!"
So she went against her better judgment and sent off the text "Well still kicking it here with a couple of people."
Before she could send the second text inviting him, he called. She answered, and MG decided it was time for her to leave. She was saying goodbye to MG and KSL took it as her saying goodbye to him and hung up. She texted him after closing the door on MG.
"I was saying goodbye to MG not you silly. So legit I didn't hear a word you said over the phone. I was inviting you over to hang but I guess have a happy new year."
He called a second time. He was close and could head over.
There was a knock at the door, and JJ was on the other side. Goldie and her husband and dog left, so it was just JJ and Dawn. Her party was dwindling, and it was going to look silly when KSL got there.
The doorbell rang.
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